I am MANIC today. Lack of sleep doesn't help. I was up til past one am last night and got up around 4:30 am. Fun times!!!
I was supposed to go to Biloxi next weekend, but I think that's been nixed. I'm upset since I won't be able to spend time with the Lot Lizard, but plans may change, so I'm trying to stay optimistic. Probably because I'm listening to "Optimistic" by Radiohead.
IRONY IN YOUR FACE
So what shall I do for my vacation? I've already got some ideas, but being the person that I am, I'll probably not go through with any of them and end up lazing about my house with my dogs and bothering people because I'm bored. They know when I'm like this and tend to ignore, which is fine. I'm usually texting people at random to distract myself from the voices in my head, and when someone responds, I'm on them like white on rice. They shouldn't have engaged, which is what I usually tell them.
I should be getting a new videogame to waste away some hours, so that will be fun. Music and games are my solace when I'm in my sociopath mode, which is when I don't care a lick about being around people but still need to keep busy.
There's this house out by where my sister and her family lives, and every time I drive by it, I feel like Wayne Campbell, speaking the mantra "She will be mine. Oh yes, she will be mine." I have no clue what this house looks like on the inside, but it's a gorgeous old farmhouse that sits atop a nice little hill with tons of space and trees. I imagine myself sitting on the front porch in a rocking chair watching thunderstorms. If that house were mine, that is.
Although sometimes I think if I ever came into a lot of money, I would just fix up my own house. The kitchen can be made bigger if I knock a wall out, and I really need to turn one of the spare rooms into a bedroom for the occasional sleepover. The other spare room is packed with books and movies and music and junk. There's no rhyme or reason to it, just tossed in there. I open the door and want to clean it up, but I haven't a clue where to begin so I shut the door and ignore it.
I'm very good at ignoring messes. Denial, maybe? Who the hell knows. Like I said, I'm manic today and taking it out on my blog, which I haven't done in a while.
There are days when I want to sell everything and use the money to travel around with my dogs and the Honey Badger, working as a waitress or whatever when I need a little extra cash. Hanging out in a small town then moving on when the mood strikes me. I don't like having roots, which is why buying my house was a huge deal for me. It's not that I feel stuck or anything, but I think it helps me resist my urge to just up and leave when flights of fancy strike me. Like right now, I want to leave work. Sure, I've got one final show to caption before my day is done, but meh. I'm not feeling it today. Besides that, my concentration doesn't exist today, so it would be for the greater good. Or so I tell myself.
Well, I think I've rambled on enough. This was more for me to just pass the time and get the jumbled thoughts out of my head, but if you enjoyed this, good. You're probably like "Thank the gods I'm not like this!" :D
